Lately I haven't been sure of much. The only thing I do know for sure is that I hurt, alot. When I got the call from my parents that I was flying home, I hoped that nothing was wrong, and now I see that was a naive thought. My parents are seperating. It was a huge shock to everyone, especially to Jacob and I. We had no idea what was going on. The worst part is that my dad is the one who officially decided it, as he was the one who had an affair. So now he's leaving us to go and be with her and her children. It's like a bad nightmare, and I keep hoping that I'll wake up, but I know I won't, and that may be the scariest thing to deal with.
The future isn't certain, and in many ways, I've lost a part of me in seeing my dad fall away and disregard the Lord's commandments. He was always such an example to me, and without that constant example in my life, I don't know what I'm going to do. I guess try and be strong. I just don't know how to do it. All I know is that if I didn't have the people supporting me that I have, then I would not be able to get through this.
My name is Lauren Kearns, and this is my blog about finding myself as I go through my life. I'll probably post pictures and stories and possibly even parts of my bucket list as I complete them.
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